Songs you're feeling

JawboneOfAnAss said:
I wound strangle the me of 10 years ago with my own two hands and be justified.

My wife is a saint and a thank HaShem that she still loves me.
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Plus 1 brother. Only problem is the me from 10 years ago would murder the me now with just bare hands. I'm so fucking old and sad.
 
joben said:
So sorry for you. It's not gonna get better. I truly think we are dead as a society. I try to act like I don't care but it weighs on me. So I'm a prepper now.
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There is an Israeli song about some stuff like this. 'We survived the Pharoh, we will survive this'. It helps me sometimes.

 
Loughe said:
nah man, i wanted to be cool with irish. but, sadly, i doubt that ever happens again now.

it's not that i can't be called shit i've been in my past, shit, i earned it...at those times.

what bothers me is that i've never allowed that person to login here. to the point i spent years offline, when i could have used the community, intentionally because i loved this community.

and only one person really spoke to me in that time, and he might not ever admit it....but i get legit 5150 insane when i'm unwell....i'm incapable of pretending i'm not, or even really formulating coherent sentences...i'm nothing like i am in my day to day on here...i can't just dabble with that shit then act like i'm ok...meth induced schitophrenia is a thing, and i get it....immediately. so for somebody to claim wild shit, without any actual point of reference, just because they know some shit about me...that they ONLY KNOW because i outright admit my failures...is so far beyond disrespectful, i just can't forget it. and since i can't understand why it's happening, and they ain't owning that it's a huge misfire and super fvcked to be doing....i can't predict if and when it will happen again, so....i refuse to engage further with people like that.

it's strictly self preservation
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and only one person really spoke to me in that time, and he might not ever admit it.
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joben said:
Plus 1 brother. Only problem is the me from 10 years ago would murder the me now with just bare hands. I'm so fucking old and sad.
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We made it this far. Only forward from here. We owe it to our bloodline. I tell this to myself.

My grandfathers grandfather, when struck blind, wandered off into the woods to die, so he wouldnt snatch food from the mouths of those deserving.

Only forward.
 
JawboneOfAnAss said:
We made it this far. Only forward from here. We owe it to our bloodline. I tell this to myself.

My grandfathers grandfather, when struck blind, wandered off into the woods to die, so he wouldnt snatch food from the mouths of those deserving.

Only forward.
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It's true. Time is the enemy of every man that ever lived. I just wish I could handle it better. It's depressing sometimes.
 
joben said:
Dont be shy. Who was it?
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i'm not shy, and said it in the fight thread....it was my shower buddy abb. he spoke to me at prolly one of my absolute lowest points in my life...and it ain't like he talked me out of the abyss....

but he kinda gave me a beacon on where the shore was, to be deadass honest. whether he meant to or not, he treated me....like me. and was talking to me like i was saying insane shit, and that i needed to get better....

while most other mf's in my life were just content to watch me punish myself.

which is part of the reason i let that shit between he and I sting as bad as it did. but to his credit, he never really used any of that conversation in his shit talk to me. he did say some of the most foul shit i ever had said to me, but it wasn't based or revolving around that situation or time in my life, and i do thank him for that....even if i emphatically disagreed with essentially every other thing he said to me...besides calling me a honkey and a faggot...but i mean, we were shower buddies....so same same, que no?!
 
Loughe said:
i'm not shy, and said it in the fight thread....it was my shower buddy abb. he spoke to me at prolly one of my absolute lowest points in my life...and it ain't like he talked me out of the abyss....

but he kinda gave me a beacon on where the shore was, to be deadass honest. whether he meant to or not, he treated me....like me. and was talking to me like i was saying insane shit, and that i needed to get better....

while most other mf's in my life were just content to watch me punish myself.

which is part of the reason i let that shit between he and I sting as bad as it did. but to his credit, he never really used any of that conversation in his shit talk to me. he did say some of the most foul shit i ever had said to me, but it wasn't based or revolving around that situation or time in my life, and i do thank him for that....even if i emphatically disagreed with essentially every other thing he said to me...besides calling me a honkey and a faggot...but i mean, we were shower buddies....so same same, que no?!
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Ok. I just don't want to be elderly. I get it though.
 
joben said:
It's true. Time is the enemy of every man that ever lived. I just wish I could handle it better. It's depressing sometimes.
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We have no choice. Only forward. We survived the meteor landing in Mexico. We owe ourselves to carry on. I should not exist. I am a product of about a thousand or so Ashkenazi Jews that survived thousands of years of massacres that dwindled their population to the point that my wife is probably a cousin 30 times removed, that I had to cry in relief that I am not a genetic carrier of Tay-Sachs, that my schizophrenic grandfather asked me to deleted the contact information of his first daughter and grand children cause 'they are not his blood but the blood of his wifes first husband' and I am haunted by the act to this day, that when the asshole who sowed the wind and reaped the whirlwind asked to reconnect to his first daughter who asked about him to my mother every single day despite his awful sin, and her son, my cousin, who has two daughters of his own and would my grandfather one of the few lucky great grandfathers, refuse any contact cause of how evil his act was, well, only forward. Only forward.
 
joben said:
Ok. I just don't want to be elderly. I get it though.
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you are elderly fam...but you that sexy ass elderly....like george clooney
 
JawboneOfAnAss said:
We have no choice. Only forward. We survived the meteor landing in Mexico. We owe ourselves to carry on. I should not exist. I am a product of about a thousand or so Ashkenazi Jews that survived thousands of years of massacres that dwindled their population to the point that my wife is probably a cousin 30 times removed, that I had to cry in relief that I am not a genetic carrier of Tay-Sachs, that my schizophrenic grandfather asked me to deleted the contact information of his first daughter and grand children cause 'they are not his blood but the blood of his wifes first husband' and I am haunted by the act to this day, that when the asshole who sowed the wind and reaped the whirlwind asked to reconnect to his first daughter who asked about him to my mother every single day despite his awful sin, and her son, my cousin, who has two daughters of his own and would my grandfather one of the few lucky great grandfathers, refuse any contact cause of how evil his act was, well, only forward. Only forward.
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this you kinda scares me....but also makes me want to share a pizza with you, as long as there's no anchovies or clams on that shit. no war crimes on my pizza bruva
 
whoever is the asshat that just asked islam about eating a cheesesteak....joben hates your existence
 
JawboneOfAnAss said:
We have no choice. Only forward. We survived the meteor landing in Mexico. We owe ourselves to carry on. I should not exist. I am a product of about a thousand or so Ashkenazi Jews that survived thousands of years of massacres that dwindled their population to the point that my wife is probably a cousin 30 times removed, that I had to cry in relief that I am not a genetic carrier of Tay-Sachs, that my schizophrenic grandfather asked me to deleted the contact information of his first daughter and grand children cause 'they are not his blood but the blood of his wifes first husband' and I am haunted by the act to this day, that when the asshole who sowed the wind and reaped the whirlwind asked to reconnect to his first daughter who asked about him to my mother every single day despite his awful sin, and her son, my cousin, who has two daughters of his own and would my grandfather one of the few lucky great grandfathers, refuse any contact cause of how evil his act was, well, only forward. Only forward.
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Yeah, I'm not religious like that. I just think we are on the brink of global collapse.
 
Loughe said:
this you kinda scares me....but also makes me want to share a pizza with you, as long as there's no anchovies or clams on that shit. no war crimes on my pizza bruva
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Just pepperoni and sausage. Neapolitan style. Like Di Faras (HaShem rest his soul)
 
joben said:
Yeah, I'm not religious like that. I just think we are on the brink of global collapse.
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i blame it on richard simmons dying. everything went to shit after that.

tell me i'm wrong
 
ok....palatte cleanser time....as i twist up this evening's post ice cream blunt....

I LOVE ME SOME MASEGO..not just during setcy setcy time....but then especially.

i was getting laid tonight, until i stated i was gunna bang the librarian. then my ex said no pvssay....which, yeah. i ain't stoked about that. but also, bih....who broke up with who here...i was aware of what i was letting go...and still let go. so.

winning doesn't always feel as good as charlie sheen made it seem, just being entirely transparent n shit

 
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